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| When I was downloading the pics...I didn't know who this was, it took me a second to figure out that was me from behind!! |
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| My son was taking pictures of us....sorry it is blurry :) |
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| My family in Uintah canyon May 6, 2012 |
Sorry....I'm late getting to this update, but I got a very part-time job, and it is throwing my schedule into chaos. Everyone knows how much I ♥ chaos! ;) I feel like my life is getting more and more crazy, but in a good kind of way. I have TONS of energy and really feel great being able to run around and just be able to not have to worry so much about my weight and how it affected everything I did. I don't have to freak out about booths at restaurants or getting on a ride at the zoo. I can easily slid into and out of places that I once use to pass up because I didn't want to embarrass myself with the whole spectacle of doing something. I ♥ ♥ ♥ it! I love how everyone is really starting to notice, especially since I am getting down further than I ever have before. It is a whole new me, and only in 5, YES 5 MONTHS! I am down to only pills for my Diabetes. I couldn't be more happy about that! Soon, the doc thinks I can completely stop ALL medication. What will that be like??? I haven't been without medication since I was 20 years old! How would it be? I cannot even tell you how much of a burden would be lifted. Life is changing by leaps and bounds and I don't know how it will all play out, but I can tell you that just my health alone has made this complicated journey so worth it! I actually went up to the mountains and hiked around and sat by the fire. I was able to laugh and enjoy the time there. I didn't have to wonder if the chair would hold me up. It was wonderful! OK, OK so I know that after all that jargon you really just want all the stats!! ;) Thank God I am smart enough to at least put the good stuff at the bottom, so MAYBE you guys will read all the rest! LOL My weight today is: 225lb. I have lost 87lbs. in 5 months. I have 66lbs. to my goal. I am down to size 18 pants! WOW! That has been a long long time since I have been in that size. I have a lap that my daughter can sit on now. I can cross my legs. The seat belt is fitting better and more comfortably. I can turn my head to see behind me....especially in a car that is a HUGE plus!! ;) I can stand for a 12 hour shift and not think it is the end of the world. Life is getting better and better. I am thankful that I did this....was is scary ? HELL yes it was scary, but it has been the BEST thing I could have ever done. Has it sucked? YES! I won't ever lie that this has been one of the hardest things I have ever done....even harder than quitting meth or smoking!! FOOD is EVERYWHERE, and our lifestyle has linked food to everything we do!! You can never avoid the temptation, but this surgery has helped me as a tool to put my overeating into check. Do I still screw up? All the time, but I know that I can make better choices and move forward. With every victorious pound lost I cannot deny that I love those feelings more than the loss of being able to shove an oversized hamburger into my face. It was hard to give it up at first, I was so use to using food to basically make up for everything else. Now I use food more correctly....as fuel to move this body. I love that I am full after very little and I can do so many other things now that the extra weight is not literally weighing me down! I just pray everyday that I can continue to use the lessons taught to me through this whole process.
