One Year Later.....

 

This is the culprit to my weight loss plateau....so to speak. :)

Well I have officially made it to my one year anniversary of having my gastric bypass. What a crazy year it has been. First, I'd like to say that I am happy that I made this decision even if at first I didn't seem so happy about it. My overall health has improved significantly, and that is what the main purpose was all about. Second, I haven't been so great about blogging these past few months. I guess you could say that I have had other things on my mind. I went yesterday to the surgeons office for my one year appointment, which was pretty comical. I mean, here I am 8 months pregnant, walking into the weight LOSS office. Yeah, I got some funny looks....like "is this lady lost". LOL I waddled up to the desk and let them know I was there for my visit, and the receptionist congratulated me on my one year anniversary, then asked me how much weight have I lost. I said that it was debatable. I was pregnant. :) She said that she thought so, but she did not want to assume and ask. Many obese women get asked that all the time when they are NOT pregnant, and it can be hurtful. But there I was all big and really pregnant, not your norm for their office. So the surgeon wants to see me again in 6 months, after I have this baby, and make sure that I am back on track with my weight loss. He was happy to hear that my pregnancy was going great, and that my weight gain has been within normal weight gain standards for any woman. I have only gained about 22lbs. The best news was my Ha1C level was 5.3, anyone who knows anything about Diabetes knows that number is FABULOUS!!!!! So life moves ever forward, and I will be moving along with it. This baby will be here no later than January 28th, maybe sooner, but for now she is staying right on track with her growth and not getting too big. I still have moments where I have pushed the limits with my stomach, and believe me my stomach fights back. I have learned to really take the cues that my body gives me, so I am not getting to full or even throwing up. I will be interested to see what happens after I deliver, because my progress stalled after 5 months, but I did pretty good getting nearly 100lbs. off during that time.

Growing to great lengths

I am 19 weeks along, almost half way! I have been amazed at the differences with this pregnancy compared to my other ones. I have only gained 8lbs. so far, and it fluctuates between 6-8lbs, but so far 8 has been the total weight gained. Now in the past, I gained close to 60-70lbs with each pregnancy. I would be so miserable by the end of the pregnancy. I feel like I look huge as a house, but in general I have always looked nine months pregnant, even when I am not pregnant. All my weight has been carried in my belly and I have had smaller arms and legs (trust me they have shown their fair share of weight, but generally they have always been smaller in comparison to my belly.). My insulin needs are still minimal compared to what they were in the past. I am amazed at how little it takes now to control my blood sugars. Some days I feel like I am eating constantly, but I eat no where near the amount of food I use to. I have also found that I make better food choices, just because I had to stick to the strict diet afterwards, and just got use to eating veggies and protein. I worry constantly about ruining the surgery. I hear all about failed GB surgeries and pray that it won't happen to me. I have really come to the understanding that if I don't use this tool then it won't work, but that is all it is as TOOL! Not a cure all, I still have had to do a lot of the work with changing bad habits, and doing more exercising. I am excited to see how much more weight I can lose after this pregnancy. I will interested to see how quickly it will come off. I'm sure my exercising level will increase if this baby girl is anything like her sister!!!! I will be running my head off trying to keep up with those two. So my update today is that I weigh in at 228lbs. which is still an 84lb. lose after surgery. I am nine months out of surgery and I am almost in my 5th month of pregnancy.....again I cannot stress how much your fertility increases!! ;)

Ok...so I guess after posting my growing belly pics....I still feel better about my weight loss journey! My face and neck are skinnier. LOL I can't complain too much about an 8lb. gain. :)

Post op and pregnancy

Since I have found out that I am pregnant way earlier than I should have been after having surgery (they say to wait 18 months) I have been doing pretty good. Concerns in the beginning were things such as keeping my food down and getting enough calorie intake to support the growing baby. I haven't had too many problems with vomiting since having the surgery, the only time it happens is when I eat too fast(not chewing my food) and eat too much. The baby is growing fine and so far the Doctors are happy with how I am doing. I weighed 220 when I found out I was expecting and I have gained about 2-4 lbs so far.....amazing to me! My previous pregnancies I gained anywhere from 60-70lbs.....yikes! We are excited to learn if the baby will be a boy or a girl...and I am anxious to get to the end and see if I have another big baby or if Ryann was a fluke because of all the medication I was taking! ;) Ryann weighed in at 10lbs 3oz....but my Wes was only 6lbs. I am praying that the saying each baby you have gets bigger is NOT true.....heaven help me if I have a bigger baby! Sadly I realized that when I go out to the doctor for my one year surgiversary I will be 8 months pregnant.....I don't think my before and after pics will be all that great! ;) Maybe I can have him wait to do the before and after until after I have the baby....like 6 months after! LOL

 Here is peanut....growing like crazy. :)

I'm LATE!!!!! (In more ways than one!)

OK.....I didn't get to my monthly post last month because I hadn't figured out how to make my BIG announcement. I found out that I was pregnant and so I was nervous about what was going to happen and how this surgery was going to affect the pregnancy. I hit my 5 month surgiversary and bam.....well lets just reiterate this surgery DOES affect your fertility!!!!!!! At least it really affected mine! ;) I made it to 220lbs. and now I have stayed there for about two months. I have had to go back onto my insulin, because growing a baby means I have to be really well controlled with my blood sugars. I have not had to take even close to the amounts that I use to take with my other pregnancies. So far this has been less intense than having my other kids so far. I am considered high risk for my age, my diabetes and for having this surgery not so long ago, but I haven't had to see so many different specialist this time. Sometime around the middle to end of January we will be getting a new little person to add to the chaos of our family. We are excited and about all I am praying for right now is for this baby to have stick straight hair!!!!!! ;) The OB doctor said that I might continue to lose weight but towards the end of the pregnancy I could gain. I just know I won't be gaining the standard 60 lbs. I gained with my other two. So far I have gained about 3-4 lbs. and I can live with that.

LATE, but GREAT update! ;)



When I was downloading the pics...I didn't know who this was, it took me a second to figure out that was me from behind!!

My son was taking pictures of us....sorry it is blurry :)

My family in Uintah canyon May 6, 2012

Sorry....I'm late getting to this update, but I got a very part-time job, and it is throwing my schedule into chaos. Everyone knows how much I ♥ chaos! ;) I feel like my life is getting more and more crazy, but in a good kind of way. I have TONS of energy and really feel great being able to run around and just be able to not have to worry so much about my weight and how it affected everything I did. I don't have to freak out about booths at restaurants or getting on a ride at the zoo. I can easily slid into and out of places that I once use to pass up because I didn't want to embarrass myself with the whole spectacle of doing something. I ♥ ♥ ♥ it! I love how everyone is really starting to notice, especially since I am getting down further than I ever have before. It is a whole new me, and only in 5, YES 5 MONTHS! I am down to only pills for my Diabetes. I couldn't be more happy about that! Soon, the doc thinks I can completely stop ALL medication. What will that be like??? I haven't been without medication since I was 20 years old! How would it be? I cannot even tell you how much of a burden would be lifted. Life is changing by leaps and bounds and I don't know how it will all play out, but I can tell you that just my health alone has made this complicated journey so worth it! I actually went up to the mountains and hiked around and sat by the fire. I was able to laugh and enjoy the time there. I didn't have to wonder if the chair would hold me up. It was wonderful! OK, OK so I know that after all that jargon you really just want all the stats!! ;) Thank God I am smart enough to at least put the good stuff at the bottom, so MAYBE you guys will read all the rest! LOL My weight today is: 225lb. I have lost 87lbs. in 5 months. I have 66lbs. to my goal. I am down to size 18 pants! WOW! That has been a long long time since I have been in that size. I have a lap that my daughter can sit on now. I can cross my legs. The seat belt is fitting better and more comfortably. I can turn my head to see behind me....especially in a car that is a HUGE plus!! ;) I can stand for a 12 hour shift and not think it is the end of the world. Life is getting better and better. I am thankful that I did this....was is scary ? HELL yes it was scary, but it has been the BEST thing I could have ever done. Has it sucked? YES! I won't ever lie that this has been one of the hardest things I have ever done....even harder than quitting meth or smoking!! FOOD is EVERYWHERE, and our lifestyle has linked food to everything we do!! You can never avoid the temptation, but this surgery has helped me as a tool to put my overeating into check. Do I still screw up? All the time, but I know that I can make better choices and move forward. With every victorious pound lost I cannot deny that I love those feelings more than the loss of being able to shove an oversized hamburger into my face. It was hard to give it up at first, I was so use to using food to basically make up for everything else. Now I use food more correctly....as fuel to move this body. I love that I am full after very little and I can do so many other things now that the extra weight is not literally weighing me down! I just pray everyday that I can continue to use the lessons taught to me through this whole process.

learning to take a compliment

I went to town the other day, and I was bombarded with people telling me how great I looked. WHAT?!?! That never happens. Well not like the words said to me the other day. "You look like a million bucks!", "I'm gonna take a picture of you from the back, because the backside of you looks great!" (I'll admit, I don't see that view very often, if not never) and "I didn't recognize you, you have lost a lot of weight!" I didn't know what to really say, except Thank You. Which was plenty, but I was certainly not use to going places and having so many people notice what has been going on with my weight loss. Don't get me wrong, I LOVED IT!!! It was nice to hear these wonderful words to give me an extra boost towards my goal. I know it will die down after everyone gets use to the new smaller me, but I will enjoy every single compliment I receive until that day comes. :) I went out to my surgeon and received more praise for how well I was doing. Down a total of 85lbs. in his records, but I think he started from a different starting point. My calculations have me down 82lbs, but hey I won't be nit picky!! ;) Driving back home from the appointment, I decided to try and find out the last time I weighed less than 200lbs. Well the hospital in town only has records for me that go back to 1992. I was 15 years old, and my recorded weight at the visit in March 1992 was 222lbs. So that means that I have no idea how old I was when I weighed in over 200lbs. I think it is safe to say that it was probably between the ages of 13-15, so that means I have not seen the 100's since about 1990 or 1991. That is freaking 21-22 YEARS!!!!!! I am going to have a big ol' party when I make it to that number!!!!

Emotional Sabatoge

I am a confessed emotional eater. It gets extremely out of hand when I am feeling sad and depressed. I can shovel food in to my mouth without thought or feeling, all in an effort to numb the pain I am feeling on the inside. So looking back, I guess you can see(by my weight) that I have spent A LOT of time eating away my emotional pain. I have not figured out how to fix this problem, because even now with this surgery, I am still "eating" my problems away. It is all I know how to do. I have never been able to develop the tools to help me to deal with hurtful emotions in any other way. I am stuck! I feel like I cannot turn in any new direction. I try, but only to fail. Then comes the whole new round of painful feelings of how much of a failure I am at everything. See how I am stuck? I have always known that this was a problem, but now that I am surgically altered I am going to really have a hard time coping with my inability to cope. I can still try to EAT my problems away, but I will FAIL at this weight loss. See again, I am stuck! I try to fess up and really lay my thoughts and feelings on the line, only to be slapped in the face with how horrible I am to everyone. So I am not allowed to really speak about the issues, because I will be causing someone else pain. Again, stuck. I AM NOT PERFECT!!!! I DO have FEELINGS, and I MAKE MISTAKES.....ALL THE TIME! I do, however, try to work through them. Which I obviously suck at. I try to admit my faults and try to make amends. I can still use a lot of work here too. I wish someone could just once tell me that it was OK to just be me. Ultimately I am scared that I have spent all this time thinking I mattered to people, who if I stopped putting myself into their life, I would become non-existent to them. I guess it really boils down to....have I ever really mattered to them? Or am I really the boil on the butt of humanity? Are they counting down the seconds to my failure? Am I giving them the ammunition? How can I turn these horrible feelings into something positive? How can I continue to love people who have nothing but hate for me? Will it really matter next week? How long can I lie to myself, that what I do can make the changes needed to make things better? Food was my friend. Food was nice to me, never told me I was unwanted. Never told me I was around at the wrong time. Food knew my deepest darkest secrets, and still wanted to be around me. See my sick obsession? I can twist all this in my mind to make it all make sense in my own little world. See how easy it is for me to justify my behavior to suit my need. I hate myself for allowing things to get myself worked up to such a state, but I am an addict and a professional liar to myself. I can make a mountain out of a mole hill in seconds flat, as you can all see by this post. I guess I am a long way from being "fixed" and there are never any guarantees in life.

Can you say SURGIVERSARY?? ;)

4 months out of surgery, and things are getting better every step of the way. I have lost 77lbs! I started out in a size 26/28 and was worried about growing out of that size. (YIKES) I am now in a size 22, which is getting to loose. I can fit into a size XXL(20) shirt from Old Navy. It has been kinda weird to see where the weight is being lost on my body. Some places are losing it better than others, but I am not going to get too picky about the losses just yet. So this brings me to the dreaded part of the journey....yep you guessed it, the saggy baggy skin syndrome. It is pretty frightening, but totally worth being able to walk, tie my shoes, see my toes, bend over and touch the ground. I will love my extra skin buddy for all the added health benefits I am getting to FINALLY enjoy! So my goal is to get to 159 lbs. and I am getting closer every day. :) I cannot even imagine myself at 200lbs. because I have not been at this size since I was in 9-10th grade!! But trust me, I will be screaming it from the rooftops when I hit that goal! 76 lbs. to go to my goal! I am HALF way there!!! :)

What's that you say???

I have been through a lot when it comes to being sick. Diabetes sucks!!! I found out that I had it when I was 20 years old. I have been to numerous doctors for my Diabetes, which then lead to other health problems....such as PCOS, High Blood Pressure, Bad Cholesterol, Sleep Apnea, Back Problems. OK, so maybe it had nothing to do completely with Diabetes, but rather my weight problem. ;) Look at me still in denial that I had a weight problem. Since having this surgery I have blogged about how I have hated the decision I made. How hard it has been to change a lifetime of bad eating habits and choices. How I have been angry and pissed off at the world. How it has begun to change and not be so bad. Well this particular blog entry is about all the good news I have been receiving from the doctors. What?!?! GOOD NEWS?!?!? Yep, I have become very pessimistic about hearing from doctors, because usually they are telling me bad news. I have never gotten news where I have had to say, "Are you serious?" and it be for a very good reason. If any of you are familiar with Diabetes the evil medical world came up with a test to tell if you were cheating and not taking care of your Diabetes like you are suppose to. I HATE that test!! It's called a Hemoglobin A1C. My A1C has been generally around the 9-10 mark(which is bad). The only times I ever had it in the normal range was during my pregnancies. The last A1C was 11.something.....which is really bad. So when they called and told me my A1C was 6.8, I said, "Are you serious???" That was with NO MEDICATIONS!!!!!! None, because I have been bad about taking it all. WOO HOO!!!! Finally, feeling like this is really going to help my Diabetes. I will always be a Diabetic, just I will be able to move to the type where I can control mine with diet and exercise. So, just to let anyone who doesn't know what that means....anything under 7.0 is considered normal. I'm just barely "normal", so I need to take a pill to bring it down a little more. I'm fine with that!! My cholesterol is good. I am sleeping better. Blood Pressure is normal. I am feeling great! It's close to my 4 month update, so I am saving my weight til then! Gotta give you something to look forward to! ;)

Update, Update....Read all about it...

Ok....I am doing my 3 month update early, because I will probably forget to do it on the 5th. ;) I am doing better, feeling better, and getting skinnier. I have been thinking about things lately and thought I'd share a bit of back story with you all. :) I know, just what you wanted to hear, huh!! ;) In 2001, I maxed my weight out at 300lbs. At that point that was the heaviest I had ever been in my life. I have been over 200lbs. since 10th grade, but I really got crazy toward the end of my first marriage. Imagine that. ;) (depression and a bad marriage can have that affect on you!) When I decided to dump the loser and figured out that there are WAY better fish out in the sea, I dropped 80lbs in about 5-6 months. Yay me. I managed that weight for about 3-4 years, including a 60 lb. gain during my pregnancy with Wes which I lost all of it after I had him. My max weight was in 2008, when I weighed in at 357lbs(yikes) right after my delivery of Ryann. She even weighed 10lbs, but I was huge with her from all the medications I was on. After I had her, I managed to lose 127lbs. the year and a half after she was born. I was maintaining at about 235-240, until last May. I got back on all my meds and started gaining like crazy. Which brings you to this story. I started this time at 312lbs. and today I am at 248! Yep, I said it 248!!! 64 lbs BABY!!!!! I know, I know. I think to myself....so what. Look at how many times you have yo-yo'd 100lbs. before! In the past ten years I have lost my whole current body weight!!!! Actually a little more....251lbs. lost and found in a vicious cycle of medications and I won't lie overeating. I am still unable to really believe that this time will be different, but I am getting better at positive thinking and realizing that things are much different than previous times. I am actually feeling better, my physical self is responding to the changes in my body that are happening because I am not overstuffing myself with horrible foods anymore. I can't wait to tell you when I have broken my barrier of 200lbs and I start watching the scale move down to weights I have never seen before.

Dec 2011

Dec 2011

Can you tell a difference? I can. :)

Settling into my new way of thinking

At the beginning of this journey I was more than a little vocal about how unhappy I was with starting down this path of weight loss. Well, as I had predicted, I managed to make it through and change my mind. I was going through a rough period of adjustment, but I made it out the other side...alive! ;) My weight loss has slowed, but it is still coming down. I have been able to figure out when my tummy has had enough, so I don't get sick like I did a few times when I tried to push it. Life is settling down...although I have now become obsessed with sewing! I think I have replaced my stress eating with sewing! I'll post pics next time to mark my 3 month surgiversary. I am at 250 and I am really starting to feel better. When I have lost massive amounts of weight before I never felt better. Mainly because I was still having high blood sugars(300-380). So I would always be feeling the effects of my diabetes. My blood sugars are hovering around 170-200 so this time I am feeling better. Yay!

Once a Cheater....Always a Cheater! :(

Yep...that is how the old saying goes, right?? Well I have been cheating and I can tell that it has slowed my weight loss down. I have been doing great, but I just love me some little crackers and a couple of chips every once in a while. OK who am I kidding?? I have been including them into my everyday routine. So now I have gone from losing tons to only losing 4 lbs. in the past 2 weeks. I guess I had better just stick strictly to yogurt and soup for a while. I had my two month check-up with Dr. M and he said I was doing great. Of course I didn't tattle on myself about being bad....duh!! I learned not to do that at an early age in life...why stop now??? I am still struggling to get my 64+ oz. of water a day...so on the way home from SLC last night I would count 20 road reflectors and then take a drink....pathetic huh? I had to pee real bad by the time we got home, and I refuse to use the facilities at the rest stop in the middle of nowhere before Duchesne for the simple purpose that I have watched WAY too many CSI, NCIS, and Criminal Minds episodes to no better than to stop in the middle of nowhere. :) I guess my thoughts are that I will try to do better this next little while to see if I can gain some better improvement. Total weight loss is at 54lbs in 10 weeks. I'll take it. I have had many people give wonderful compliments about the change they see, which makes me feel good. I have personally noticed my neck getting thinner...LOL I want more to come off around the middle. Ugh...I am never satisfied. :) I guess it must be easier fat to burn. Just my luck....I'll have a skinny face and neck, but still look like an apple. :)

Diabetic or not?

I am getting all packed up to go to a mess of Doctor appointments....between me and Wes, we have funded a few Porches for the many doctors in our lives!!!! This appointment for me will be a big one. I will be talking to my endocrinologist about whether or not I can stop my medications for my diabetes. I have been knocked down to only one shot a day (which I manage to forget more often than not) and that is a huge step from two massive shots morning and night, two maxed out doses of metformin morning and night, and one more injection, also maxed out, in the morning. Not to mention corrections during the day, which is more injections for high blood sugars. This surgery made it possible for me to see a light at the end of my diabetic tunnel of despair. I am hoping that with my weight loss and my blood sugars hovering in the 150-160 range, that I will be allowed to officially quit taking the last injection. Oddly enough, speaking of injections, my life will not be completely free of needles!! :( I have not tolerated my b-12 sublingual vitamin (YUCK), so I am now giving myself monthly injections. My first one the nurse did....let me just say...THOSE ARE NOT DIABETIC NEEDLES they are using! I am SCARED! EEEKKKK! I have 27 days to freak myself out of actually being able to do it. I'll be letting you know how this appointment goes. As for Wes, I don't even want to think about what is going to happen with him, I think that he is out to make sure a few more doctors get their porches paid for! :( Poor kid, he is such a trooper to just smile and go with the flow of it all. No matter what they tell him, he just says OK, and does it. I am praying that we can start getting the answers we need for him.

What do you want from me???

An update?   Well, fine then. I am 7 weeks out of surgery and I have hit 262lbs. 50lbs lost baby!!!! How's that for an update?? Well don't start jumping for joy just yet. I am still battling with the emotional turmoil and sometimes I feel like I am losing, but when I look at the numbers, well how can I be unhappy about that...huh! I managed to find someone I know that has had this surgery and is about 3 years out. She said it does get better and that I won't always feel this way...so there is hope for me yet! :) Life is getting better slowly, so that is good. Now I can say goodbye to two 25 lb. bags of dog food....maybe I will donate my total weight in dog food to a local animal shelter...wouldn't that be fun?? :)

Broke free

 my pic at surgery 305# after a 10 day diet. My journey starts at 312# I know in these pics you can't tell too much of a difference, but I was wearing a tent for a top and baggy pants just to stay comfortable. So hopefully in the coming months you will be able to see the transformation better. :) PLUS SIDE....I went from only being able to wear flip flops to wearing tennis shoes again!! I can put on socks again all by myself and put my shoes on!!!!! :)

I have been at a stand off with the scale. I managed to get a good lick it and break free from the 270's. I am now at 268 and back to losing....finally! Down a total of 44 lbs since surgery 5 weeks ago. Important things I learned: increased water intake, walked more, my attitude sucks, and my family is going through this too. Simply put, I have to make this a LIFESTYLE change and just do it. Like quitting smoking, I have to do this for my health and because I want to enjoy things with my family. I know it will be hard and I will want to throw the towel in...or at someone, but I decided that this is what I was WILLING to do to get healthy. No one forced me with a gun to have the surgery, and even though I may not have thought about everything that it would involve, there was a really good reason why I thought that this surgery would be the best option for me. So I guess I just need to suck it up and get to losing....and see you all on the skinny side! :)

Is there a 12-step Program for this??

OK...So many of my regular viewers already know I am a 12-stepper from Hell!! I have battled just about every addiction out there, and have been pretty successful once I put my mind to it. So I am completely on step one with this one....Admitting I have a problem and I need help. Who knew this would be my downfall?? I have denied that I have an addiction to food for so many years that I actually believe my own BS about it. I have used it as my friend and medicated all my negative emotions with it, so now that I physically cannot do that anymore I am struggling to figure out how to cope. I have been a wreck lately. I cry over the slightest thing, because I cannot just zone out and munch til the stress is gone. I know that there is always hope for an addict. I have watched working the steps literally transform people right before my eyes. I guess I forget that this same transformation can happen for me too....IF I WORK THE STEPS!! So I guess that is where I will be starting today. HI, I'm Ginger and I am a recovering addict. My addiction started when I was around 10. My parents both worked hard to provide a wonderful life for me and my brother. Unfortunately it left us home after school until they got home. I didn't always like that. I didn't have many friends, pretty much none at that point that I was allowed to do things with. So my friend who was always there was FOOD. I would come home and make a snack, yeah....a box of macaroni and cheese which I would eat all of it. Then probably chips, and soda, and whatever snack foods we had, until my mom would come home. I believe that is where is all started. Ouch. That was painful, but honest. That is what step one is all about....HONESTY. Today it has been one month since surgery, and I am struggling, but I know things always change, and I truly believe that in 6 months to a year I will be singing a completely different tune. I just have to get through this rough patch to see the beautiful horizon. :)

Plateau???? Frustrating!

Yep....That is what it is! I have been stuck at 275-280 for about a week now. I am not happy about it at all! I am still mega frustrated by my diet or lack of diet, I should say. I HATE cooking for my family, because it is generally a favorite meal of mine. I have been pouring over blogs and websites for ways to make family favorites more healthy, and they seem more complex, with ingredients that I don't have on hand or have never heard of before. I don't know if I am now vegan, vegetarian, gluten free, sugar free, or all of the above! I thought diabetes was tricky. I want to SCREAM!!!! I still have to take shots, and check my Blood Sugars, but now I can't eat anything....nor do I really want to, but my brain still loves all my favorites. :( If only the weight would still be dropping off like water....I might be handling this a bit better, but I am completely frustrated. I still don't necessarily feel the best...I have some pains still and I am still on oxygen. Plus I have a regular cold, which is making me even crankier than normal...my poor family. I might just go nuts before this is all over with. I have to find some way to get through all of this because in reality it will never be over, unless I want to gain it all back and be diabetic again. I have a friend considering this surgery, and I was telling her it was a lot harder than I thought it would be. Truth is....it is a LOT harder than I thought it would be. So far today I ate three spoonfuls of yogurt, and a slice of cheese....doesn't that just sound wonderful?? Not really when there is a pan of homemade enchiladas in the fridge. I just can't seem to switch off my mind from food to something else. I hope that this plateau moves on soon, because I need a break to see that this really was worth all that I gave up.